Friday, December 17, 2010

When the eyes converse!!


It’s a brand new feeling every single time!
And I fail to understand how and why?
The person is the same, the relationship is the same, but somehow…..
The feeling is just brand new every single time.
The apprehensiveness remains…. So do the butterflies in my stomach!
But yet I feel new and different every time I meet him…
Yes the number of times we have met are handful..
But every time we are scheduled to meet….. We feel that many manifolds closer to each other.
It’s a brand new feeling and It feels like I am a brand new person…..
There are so many things that i discover and so many things that unfold for every visit that i make.
The wait that feels eternally long…
And the little time that we spend with each other just flies by the wink of an eye!
I don’t know the validity for this feeling..
I don’t know whether this feeling will remain….
I don’t know if this feeling is mutual!!!
But one thing I really know… I am loving this feeling!!
Sometimes it gets really difficult to hide those emotions …..
When we meet- Its about how much we missed each other and how happy we are to see each other.
When its time to leave- Our eyes just scream out loud about how much we are going to miss each other, till we get to meet the next time……

Hmmm … Its time to stop now!!!!

Overflowing emotions?!!!!

That is Just Me

Friday, October 15, 2010

Phases/ Faces of life!

Often heard people say, childhood / schooling is the best Phase of their life…..
Often heard people say, ‘I Hate working, school and college life was much better’.
Well I was just giving it a thought, since I too am experiencing the same,
I was trying to figure out what could possibly be the reason for this!

Its so much more better in school because we have all the liberty to do what ever we want. We are free to take an off without giving a reason, play around, not do the homework, keep playing all day with the reason of co- curricular activities.
One takes that risk because at the end of the day there’s not much to lose!
At the most your teacher would scold you, punish you, ask you to kneel down in front of the class. And if you’re the sportive kind, you would kneel down with a smile and wink at the first benchers, with an expression saying, ‘look I am the cool one being punished’.
On the other hand if you are the serious kind then you would kneel down with a frown and your expression would be ‘Damn! This is embarrassing’.
But at the end of the day, you have your set of friends in school who are by your side to cheer u up! And you can still be yourself, you are free to express yourself, cry, shout, show excitement, jump when you win a competition, give a hi five to your best friend for every small achievement of yours. This is the phase where we can be ourselves and be at our natural best.
College is the next phase, this is when one gets the feeling that he/she is a grown up and suddenly there is a gush in the air that gives you the feeling that you are now Independent and you have all the freedom in the world. But don’t you forget this is when you get the biggest one liner which haunts you all your life. ‘This is the turning point of your life’, this is when you feel like the whole worlds responsibilities have fallen on your shoulders! And yes to some extent you start believing in it and start taking everything seriously. This is when all your focus is on your career. You are loaded with assignments; you hardly have the time for any co-curricular activities. And even if you do manage to get some time off for your interests, you later complain that you 24 hrs in a day are not enough to complete all the work assigned. But then even here you still have the liberty of not doing your assignment or delaying it by a week or two, because you know that all you will be losing is a few marks in your assessment. So as the years pass by as you are closer to your graduation, assignments take a back seat and all the pending get togethers, parties become your priority; as you realize ‘ these are the last few days of college, we will never get these days back’. Worst case scenario, you will be suspended for all the pending assignments and other undisciplined behavior! Even then that’s not all that bad, cause you will be back in college in a few weeks!( believe me this is something you will be proud of for life) This is the phase when you can still manage to be yourself with all your friends around. Because you know that all of you will stay united and stand by each other.
And then comes the phase which you would be waiting for all through out your school and college life. The job profile that you always wanted to be in; a position that you always looked up to and dreamt about. You feel elated on the first day of your job! You say to yourself ‘Yes! This is what I always wanted to do’ but as the days go by, a few months and the 9-10 hrs of work feel longer than the 36 hrs of work you used to put in during your college days. Suddenly those assignments feel like a blessing! You would’nt mind doing the whole classes assignments, but you would just hate to even look at a single mail in your mailbox.
And as this blog becomes longer, draggy, and boring; as the smile on your face is fading off as you read on, the smile on your face would completely fade off in your office.
Rather you are expected to keep a straight face all day long no matter what. Flash a fake smile every time you see any of your colleagues and don’t you forget about the colgate smile you need to give your boss every morning no matter how much you dislike/hate him. And then slowly you start forgetting what you ever wanted in your life, because suddenly everything around you is so fake, you can barely differentiate between the genuine and the fake ones! And hey you need to also organize/schedule the number of days you can fall sick. An extra leave and your pocket gets lighter which is now inversely proportional to the anxiety and tension that you go through. Wondering about the punishment if you go wrong? No suspension this time. You get a big fat mail from your boss marked to every person in your team, the mail would further unfold with the most diplomatic words, ripping you off left right and center. Now is when you miss all your friends, this is no more like college where you stand in a group in front of your prof. and give them lame excuses, which he will later be forced to believe because you leave them with no other option. But it doesn’t work the same way here. The next time around you manage to go wrong, you will find a nice sealed envelope on your desk from your company, showing you the way out!
Yes after all those fake faces you made, after all those fake compliments you gave to your colleagues. This is how you will be welcomed in the ‘Corporate world’.
Eventually this Phase is where you need to learn the art of being able to frame the right ‘Face’ in the right situation.

Funny? Analytic!!
Which ever from the above.

That is Just Me!!!

Sunday, August 8, 2010

The Malgudi Days!


Where every morning is pleasant,
Where every breeze is refreshing,
Where every lane has been traversed and leads to nostalgia,
Where one wakes up to the rhythmic chirps of the birds……
Where everything seems perfect…..
This is the city where I first opened my eyes….
Where I took my first step, holding my parents hands…..
Where I uttered my first word…..
Where I did my schooling and made my first set of friends….
Where I went for my first movie….
Where I first hung out with my friends….
Where I saw my transition from an adolescent to an adult…..

Whether it was my first ever night out…. Or first overnight party….
Whether it was a long trip from school or a long vacation with my friends…
Whether it was about visiting new places or exploring newer hang outs in the city….
Whether it was studying in the best college of the city or finding a job for myself….
This is the very place where I ve done it all…
From walking on my toes to standing independent on my legs….
From studying new subjects to trying out new fields …..
From ogling at guys to finding the perfect guy for life….

They say there is a first time for everything…..
Well then this is the very city where I experienced all my first times….
I may have turned into a fanatic about this city… but don’t blame me for that..
Its all thanks to what I have got unconditionally from this city….
Will never ever be able to forget these years of my life….

This one is for everyone who has been a part of my life in this city and made my stay here the most memorable for life….
Love u all loads…
Nostalgic !!!
That is Just Me…

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

A Few Lost Chapters

Often heard that life is like a book and all the people we meet are its chapters….
Sometimes its hard to believe how the ‘Butterfly Effect’ can be so true in all walks of our life…
Jus one change in the chapter and the whole story changes….
Even worse is when some important people shape your life and mould you into what you are, and one fine day you need to leave them and move ahead.
You remain absolutely helpless….
And from there on.. you need to take on different paths and shape your life ‘Your way’…
Life has its cruel ways sometimes…
And leaves you wondering, as to how something so cruel can happen!
But you know, this is ‘LIFE’ and many intellectuals in the world have still not succeeded in deciphering the big term called ‘LIFE’.

Nevertheless I do hope the big term called ‘LIFE’ does have something good in store for all of us….
Hopefully it unfolds its pages and writes something nice at least for a few chapters……..

Dreamy and hopeful
That is Just Me!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

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You may still be the same person; you may still be leading the same life with the same people around you….. With almost the same lifestyle as well……..
But it is astonishing how your whole world goes round, by just one new entrant. That one person who makes you complete, who defines you and adds a whole new meaning to your life…………
It feels like you have shed your old skin and gotten into a brand new one…!!! The feeling of having this one person around you makes you feel so important and wanted in life……
For those who have grown up watching Yash raj movies or one of those fairy tales; this may not really sound like something new!
In no time the whole reel of films come alive when you get this feeling of being associated with that one special person in your life……
It is the same old story of a princess waiting for her prince charming coming on a white horse and take her away from the big bad world and give her all the love and care she deserves for life…….. But the feeling is still new, when you personally go thru this…. It may all sound cliché but the experience is still new!
“Someone somewhere is made for you”………….
At some point we all may have laughed at the above statement and said how ridiculous it sounds……. but we forget that we all are a part of a bigger game and the almighty is looking over all of us and has made certain plans for each and every one of us!!!!
Its absolutely amazing how decisions for life can be made in just half an hour… its amazing how u can find that perfect partner in just a matter of half an hour and its even more amazing how the couple unravel all their experiences and find comfort in each others company in absolutely no time!!!
This one is for that one and only special person in my life!!!!
Cheers
Living in a fairy land!!
That is just Me!

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Dream Castle (part I)

Every one dreams and everyone has a dream am sure. Some live on the dream and some make their dreams come true. But the real story begins, when u actually get there.
We may have dreamt about a million things and said a million things about our dreams, but how do we judge the real world on the other side of the dream? Very valid question indeed.
Once u “think” u have achieved your dream……. (wait a minute, u really did?)
And then U begin to think again…….
Is this really what I wanted? Is this really my dream? Well if it is… then why is it so ugly?, why is it just not like how I expected it to be?
This !!! is the reality check….. welcome to the real cruel world. There is no place for any dreams here. Infact you are not allowed to dream……..
It is an ugly truth yes…. But this is the reality… there is just a barren land beyond this dream. Every move pinches you and forces you to think….. “Is this exactly what you wanted?”
Its time you realise… you have just been living in your dream castle… step out of it....
Welcome to the real world……… the world to which u don wanna belong to………
I am still a dreamer though!….

That is just Me!

Dream Castle (part II)

Many dreams I have seen, many I have lived on, many more I thought would be a reality……………..
But time and tide have changed the course of my life…………….
There was this beautiful dream I had, where everything was just as nice as I ever wanted it to be…..
I had everthing that I ever wanted, everything that keeps one happy and satisfied…..
I almost forgot it was a dream… and accepted it to be the reality……..
But life has its harsh ways to splash water over your face and eventually your dream.
I thought my dream was so strong and had such a great foundation that no one could ever moveit…
This is when I realized that my dream castle was afterall made of sand!!!!!
Dismayed I was……. But surely sand castles don’t last for too long……..
Just one strong tide…. And its all gone……………..
Stop building sand catles, I have been telling my self…….
I still fail miserably each and everyday……………

Where ever life takes me hereforth………

That is just Me!

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Sometimes its worth it!

You get this life just once in a lifetime they say,
You get the opportunity to do all that you want just once in a lifetime.
“Go catch your dream and live your life” many may have said…..
But it’s not very often that people realize what exactly is their dream….
For some it may take a lifetime, while for the lucky few it may just take few years.
And once you do realize……. There is no more looking back!
You dream big and try to achieve it……
Many opportunities may have been lost….
But your passion drives you towards it………..
Often you may be disappointed and eventually give up…….
But my friend you fail to understand that when you have come so far…
Crossed so many milestones…..
It was just that one milestone which could have changed your life!!
So never give up and work towards your dream…..
Cause you may never know… good news may be just around the corner…..

And the day you do make it …. an enchanting voice will whisper from within
“You have done it!!!!”
That day you will pursue happiness…
If you never believed in tears of joy…
You will experience it!!!!
And if you are lucky enough….. you will have the icing on the cake as well….
You may have these set of people in your life…….
Who would have been there all the while…..
Almost inconspicuous… but would have been giving you the strength throughout…
They become your support system and the transition is almost involuntary and unobserved..
And just when you have got your dream…. You can see your reflection in them….
“Happiness when shared multiplies” I was always told….
When you do have your inner circle you will realize how true the above statement is….
It’s the sparkle in their eyes which adds to your joy and makes you believe in yourself….
That is the day when you will see only happy faces around you.. and for a change all genuine ones and pursue happiness…

This one is for my inner circle! Thanks a ton!!!

Believe in your dream and pursue happiness!!!!

Go getter!
That is just me!!